Why then do you see all the negative things in me?
All I ever do is try to be all that I can be,
Girl you know you're hurting me,
All the pain u give to me,
As I lay at night I'm imagining things how they used to be
Girl you know you're hurting me
What am I to do with a broken heart?
Taken from: Selwyn - Negative things.
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One seeks happiness, someone to love, and something to live for. Why is it that their existence only lays in a non-existent world of dreams? Is there something out there waiting for me? Looking for me? Probably not, who am I? A nobody, a little black dot tainting the pure white cloth of the world. One feels themselves as something insignificant, who deemed themselves not good enough, not important enough and not strong enough to live in this world. Dear little one, be brave, a whisper is heard. How to be brave? The little one asked. Just look forward to the future and don't look back, even if sometimes you feel like you want to let go, remember there will always be sunshine right after the rain.
Friday, February 20, 2004
When I cry,
The night that you said goodbye
You expected me to die
But I made a brand new start
And go on with my life
I did what I had to do
To get myself over you
I'm not falling apart
You underestimate the condition of my heart
Taken from: Condition of My Heart-Justin Guarini (English version of Fly To The Sky's)
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i just had to post that up... =)
Actually, I've got no mood to blog, but I guess I have too, coz my bloggy is complaining that it is lonely. So here I am, ready to post another round of useless crap. Hmm... what can I say... the past few days had been boring! I hate staying at home, part of me can't wait till Uni start but another part of me is not ready for it yet.
On Tuesday:
Hmm… had last minute outing, went out with Dee, we had a manicure and pedicure at Nail Studio (the one infront of HuaHo Delima) It was fun and relaxing. The manicurist asks us if it was our first time, we said yeah. Then she asks if we wanted nail polish or buffing. Dee took the nail polish. I just wanted the buffing. Apparently nail buffing has a separate price >< I didn't know that!! Obviously I'm a newbie... aaaaaaaah... now I am experienced... won't fall for that anymore... she makes it seem as if the buffing is a package deal, I guess silly me for not asking... *^^* After that, we went to The Mall, to check out the place and the Cineplex, we met Azimas, she was working at the ticket counter of the Cineplex, we chatted for a while before heading towards Pizza hut for the $5 set value meal.. Yummy.. I had the lasagne set while dee ordered the spaghetti one.. we chatted around for almost 1hr + then headed to Jaya. Basically we just went round n round looking at stuff. You can say we haven't got an aim, we just wanted to get out of the house, coz we were BORED. Wanted to catch a movie at the Cineplex, but just the 2 of us? Not fun laa... we asked amalia to come, but she couldn't make it... I guess have to postpone it to further notice.. hehehe
Thursday:
Yup, Thursday, got nothing to say about Wednesday... except got a call by UBD about the Biomed enterance interview, dee, amalia and mai got called earlier on Tuesday (while we were at pizza hut lol) The interview went ok, heh... the person kept on asking what if you don't get any of the offers? What is your back up plan? I was like... errr... I dun have a back up plan (I didn't say this tho..) I mean seriously…. My plan A was to get the Nz scholarship, plan B was to go do pre-med/biomed at UBD, I never thought of a plan C so I told them teaching... haha the guy got shocked... lolz... they were asking why I chose Nz, why I chose Canada? La la la I told them I have relatives there… they laughed and asked where in the world don’t you have relatives at, we'll send you there.. lol.. it was a very relaxing interview.. :=) glad it was alright...
Today, Friday:
NOTHING!!!! So bored all morning stayed at home... started to clean my room at about 11am, up till now... Still not done yet... I don't know how to arrange my cd's vcd's and clothes >< too many... lying around... chatted wif Mally in the afternoon. Maaaallllllyyy~~~ thanx for the song... Now I want Renfu's song *grins* hehehe….. Watched Holland V at 7, it ended at 8pm, was about to leave the room to go into my bedroom, then my finger was itchy to switch the channel to see whether ch19 its not like the normal AZIO ent now... its more like news style... I prefer the old one.. but somehow something told me to check the channel... and YEAH my intuition was RIGHT.. SHUWEI & KUNDA were the hosts for the E-news & asia... aaaaaaaah Shuwwwweeeiiii sooooo0o0o0o0 SHUAI...can melt me for 1 whole hour just staring at his face... *swoo0n*
---- yaaaayyyy... I managed to post something... claps claps... :P
---- check out my Renfu fic if you haven't... just click on the link at the side... =)
Mwaahzzzzzzz... You underestimate the condition of my heart... xxx
The night that you said goodbye
You expected me to die
But I made a brand new start
And go on with my life
I did what I had to do
To get myself over you
I'm not falling apart
You underestimate the condition of my heart
Taken from: Condition of My Heart-Justin Guarini (English version of Fly To The Sky's)
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i just had to post that up... =)
Actually, I've got no mood to blog, but I guess I have too, coz my bloggy is complaining that it is lonely. So here I am, ready to post another round of useless crap. Hmm... what can I say... the past few days had been boring! I hate staying at home, part of me can't wait till Uni start but another part of me is not ready for it yet.
On Tuesday:
Hmm… had last minute outing, went out with Dee, we had a manicure and pedicure at Nail Studio (the one infront of HuaHo Delima) It was fun and relaxing. The manicurist asks us if it was our first time, we said yeah. Then she asks if we wanted nail polish or buffing. Dee took the nail polish. I just wanted the buffing. Apparently nail buffing has a separate price >< I didn't know that!! Obviously I'm a newbie... aaaaaaaah... now I am experienced... won't fall for that anymore... she makes it seem as if the buffing is a package deal, I guess silly me for not asking... *^^* After that, we went to The Mall, to check out the place and the Cineplex, we met Azimas, she was working at the ticket counter of the Cineplex, we chatted for a while before heading towards Pizza hut for the $5 set value meal.. Yummy.. I had the lasagne set while dee ordered the spaghetti one.. we chatted around for almost 1hr + then headed to Jaya. Basically we just went round n round looking at stuff. You can say we haven't got an aim, we just wanted to get out of the house, coz we were BORED. Wanted to catch a movie at the Cineplex, but just the 2 of us? Not fun laa... we asked amalia to come, but she couldn't make it... I guess have to postpone it to further notice.. hehehe
Thursday:
Yup, Thursday, got nothing to say about Wednesday... except got a call by UBD about the Biomed enterance interview, dee, amalia and mai got called earlier on Tuesday (while we were at pizza hut lol) The interview went ok, heh... the person kept on asking what if you don't get any of the offers? What is your back up plan? I was like... errr... I dun have a back up plan (I didn't say this tho..) I mean seriously…. My plan A was to get the Nz scholarship, plan B was to go do pre-med/biomed at UBD, I never thought of a plan C so I told them teaching... haha the guy got shocked... lolz... they were asking why I chose Nz, why I chose Canada? La la la I told them I have relatives there… they laughed and asked where in the world don’t you have relatives at, we'll send you there.. lol.. it was a very relaxing interview.. :=) glad it was alright...
Today, Friday:
NOTHING!!!! So bored all morning stayed at home... started to clean my room at about 11am, up till now... Still not done yet... I don't know how to arrange my cd's vcd's and clothes >< too many... lying around... chatted wif Mally in the afternoon. Maaaallllllyyy~~~ thanx for the song... Now I want Renfu's song *grins* hehehe….. Watched Holland V at 7, it ended at 8pm, was about to leave the room to go into my bedroom, then my finger was itchy to switch the channel to see whether ch19 its not like the normal AZIO ent now... its more like news style... I prefer the old one.. but somehow something told me to check the channel... and YEAH my intuition was RIGHT.. SHUWEI & KUNDA were the hosts for the E-news & asia... aaaaaaaah Shuwwwweeeiiii sooooo0o0o0o0 SHUAI...can melt me for 1 whole hour just staring at his face... *swoo0n*
---- yaaaayyyy... I managed to post something... claps claps... :P
---- check out my Renfu fic if you haven't... just click on the link at the side... =)
Mwaahzzzzzzz... You underestimate the condition of my heart... xxx
Monday, February 16, 2004
You are not alone,
I am here with you,
Though we're far apart,
You're always be in my heart,
Never say goodbye,
someone tells me why,
First i need your hand,
Then forever can be then....
Taken from: M.Jackson- You are not alone.
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Heya bloggy, i missed you :) i've been so busy lately and ended up negelecting you, forgive me please?
*bloggy nods*
Yaaay *smiles*
Hi everyone, sorry for not updating my blog and also my fanfics, its been umm more than a week. really really sorry. I was caught up with a lot of things in life. i finally had my scholarship interview, it went alright, i don't know when the oral test is though and the results of the scholarship are suppose to be out this week. *hopes, i get the scholarship*
I went to BSP's schlrshp briefing to do mostly engineering courses, at some parts of the briefing almost fell asleep, coz i wasn't interested in engineering and they asked us to come. Some parts were kinda funny coz the guy talking was making loadsa jokes.
On Saturday:
I went on an outing with my friends, had lunch at mini q YUMMY!!! bbq'ed chicken, it was very nice, and also the japanese pizza, the name was too long, so i didn't memorize it, but mizzy knows :P she introduced it to me. By the end we finish eating at Mini q, we all smelt like bbq'ed food... hahaha.. it was fun coz we get to cook the chicken pieces ourselves. there's like a bbq pan on the table.. (i think its called a bbq pan... hahaha i really don't know) Ahmad came along on the outing, coz during the BSP briefing, he was telling me and dee that he was really-really bored at home, we both knew how he felt, staying at home IS boring, talk about watching the same thing on tv.. bleh.. yucks. So we brought him along, it was fun. After eating, we went to play pool, as usual i'm not so good... hahaha... Amalia retained her skills, makin pandai eh ia main....
After around almost 4-5pm, Rabiatul, Mai, Ruza and miz, had to go home, left with me, dee, amalia and ahmad. Dee & Amalia wanted to look for clothes + accessories for the beach bbq party tomorrow. So i went along with them, we left Ahmad at Huaho his parents picked him up around 5.30pm. While the 3 of us, dee drove us to Yayasan, Amalia bought her 3/4 pants and t-shirt there, while dee, still hasn't bought anything. We then went to Jaya next, there were lots of clothes, Dee finally bought her t-shirt there, Amalia got herself a new cap & sunglasses, me, well... i saw a t-shirt that i like, it fits me and would match my pink flip flops & bag but then it was tight fitting... i dun think it would be comfortable to go to the beach like that. I finally got home by like umm... 9pm..... 1 hr to go b4 watching Mtv Asia awards..
RENFU SOOOOOOOO KAAAAAAWWWWAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIII....
how come he seems to get even cuter everytime i see him on tv??? can someone tell me??
Kawaaiiii.....
kawaaaiii-er...
While watching tv had to prepare food for the bbq, sausages and crab sticks.. wo0o0..... had fun. i went to bed finally at around 3am. Coz i was busy doing my hair in tiny little braids, Alicia keys style... :P... my fingers all tired... and so are my legs....(tired from shopping around that is)
Sunday: Beach BBQ.
Amalia was there first, she was like there at 7.30am, and it was still raining at Muara Beach, Dee came next, followed by me 3rd, we're like where's Yadi?? He's suppose to be there first.. like he's one of the organizers.. hmmf.... but anyways, he did come, if he didnt for sure i'll kill him, somehow... :P The weather was not really sunny, it was rainy at first till about 9.30am when the rain stops, The whole day the weather was cloudy at the beach. It was nice, didn't have to worry too much about wearing sunblock. It was o0o0 WINDY!! Very nice... but the waves/currents were strong, didn't go swimming, coz i wasn't allowed. We had nice food, chicken wings, sausages, sandwiches, etc etc etc...
All in all the beach bbq was FUN!! except we didn't play football this time =/ the guys didnt bring the ball. We took pictures there.... havent develop it yet.. =/
Anyways, that's about all i want to blog, i tried to simplify it as much as possible coz if i had to go into detail, you all will prolly doze off... hehehe.. Mwaaaahzz.. thanx for reading.... ^^
o0o0h.. i forgot to mention.. I FINALLY got TENSION's- Planet Love and 5566's 2nd album, the original one.... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah *screams* i'm not sure which edition it is... but it has a free poster and calender....
My dad bought i for me, he went to Singapore on Friday, came back on Saturday, i was jealous of course.. coz i wanted to go also... who knows... its Mtv Asia Awards week.. so i'm sure there would be artists flying in on friday.... who knows.. maybe 5566 *wishful thinking* anyways.. too bad.. couldnt go.... whats worse.... my dad came back home, gave me the cd and told me... that 5566 was doing a signing at hmv that night >< waaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~ i want i want......
+++++++++++++++++++++
Vcd's/ Cd's update:
1. TENSION - Planet Love (You should buy, i love the songs!! better than their previous albums)
2. 5566 - 2nd album ( err... i'm not sure what the album is called.. hehehe...)
3. The Nymph & The con artist (Korean tv series... i'm only on the 4th disc :)
4. My Mvp Valentine Part 1 (aaaaaaaargghh.. i wanna watch part 2 =/ i don't know where to find the vcd)
Wishlist:
1. The One(i'm not sure about this name) concert vcd featuring Fly To The Sky live in concert with another singer.
2. Kangta's album.
3. I want to meet Shuwei and aldo Renfu.
4. Westside Story vcd.
5. The cont. to Mvp Valentine.
6. 100% Senorita ( aaaaaaah.. saw the previews.. it LOOKS SOOO NICE)
I am here with you,
Though we're far apart,
You're always be in my heart,
Never say goodbye,
someone tells me why,
First i need your hand,
Then forever can be then....
Taken from: M.Jackson- You are not alone.
===========================================
Heya bloggy, i missed you :) i've been so busy lately and ended up negelecting you, forgive me please?
*bloggy nods*
Yaaay *smiles*
Hi everyone, sorry for not updating my blog and also my fanfics, its been umm more than a week. really really sorry. I was caught up with a lot of things in life. i finally had my scholarship interview, it went alright, i don't know when the oral test is though and the results of the scholarship are suppose to be out this week. *hopes, i get the scholarship*
I went to BSP's schlrshp briefing to do mostly engineering courses, at some parts of the briefing almost fell asleep, coz i wasn't interested in engineering and they asked us to come. Some parts were kinda funny coz the guy talking was making loadsa jokes.
On Saturday:
I went on an outing with my friends, had lunch at mini q YUMMY!!! bbq'ed chicken, it was very nice, and also the japanese pizza, the name was too long, so i didn't memorize it, but mizzy knows :P she introduced it to me. By the end we finish eating at Mini q, we all smelt like bbq'ed food... hahaha.. it was fun coz we get to cook the chicken pieces ourselves. there's like a bbq pan on the table.. (i think its called a bbq pan... hahaha i really don't know) Ahmad came along on the outing, coz during the BSP briefing, he was telling me and dee that he was really-really bored at home, we both knew how he felt, staying at home IS boring, talk about watching the same thing on tv.. bleh.. yucks. So we brought him along, it was fun. After eating, we went to play pool, as usual i'm not so good... hahaha... Amalia retained her skills, makin pandai eh ia main....
After around almost 4-5pm, Rabiatul, Mai, Ruza and miz, had to go home, left with me, dee, amalia and ahmad. Dee & Amalia wanted to look for clothes + accessories for the beach bbq party tomorrow. So i went along with them, we left Ahmad at Huaho his parents picked him up around 5.30pm. While the 3 of us, dee drove us to Yayasan, Amalia bought her 3/4 pants and t-shirt there, while dee, still hasn't bought anything. We then went to Jaya next, there were lots of clothes, Dee finally bought her t-shirt there, Amalia got herself a new cap & sunglasses, me, well... i saw a t-shirt that i like, it fits me and would match my pink flip flops & bag but then it was tight fitting... i dun think it would be comfortable to go to the beach like that. I finally got home by like umm... 9pm..... 1 hr to go b4 watching Mtv Asia awards..
RENFU SOOOOOOOO KAAAAAAWWWWAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIII....
how come he seems to get even cuter everytime i see him on tv??? can someone tell me??
Kawaaiiii.....
kawaaaiii-er...
While watching tv had to prepare food for the bbq, sausages and crab sticks.. wo0o0..... had fun. i went to bed finally at around 3am. Coz i was busy doing my hair in tiny little braids, Alicia keys style... :P... my fingers all tired... and so are my legs....(tired from shopping around that is)
Sunday: Beach BBQ.
Amalia was there first, she was like there at 7.30am, and it was still raining at Muara Beach, Dee came next, followed by me 3rd, we're like where's Yadi?? He's suppose to be there first.. like he's one of the organizers.. hmmf.... but anyways, he did come, if he didnt for sure i'll kill him, somehow... :P The weather was not really sunny, it was rainy at first till about 9.30am when the rain stops, The whole day the weather was cloudy at the beach. It was nice, didn't have to worry too much about wearing sunblock. It was o0o0 WINDY!! Very nice... but the waves/currents were strong, didn't go swimming, coz i wasn't allowed. We had nice food, chicken wings, sausages, sandwiches, etc etc etc...
All in all the beach bbq was FUN!! except we didn't play football this time =/ the guys didnt bring the ball. We took pictures there.... havent develop it yet.. =/
Anyways, that's about all i want to blog, i tried to simplify it as much as possible coz if i had to go into detail, you all will prolly doze off... hehehe.. Mwaaaahzz.. thanx for reading.... ^^
o0o0h.. i forgot to mention.. I FINALLY got TENSION's- Planet Love and 5566's 2nd album, the original one.... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah *screams* i'm not sure which edition it is... but it has a free poster and calender....
My dad bought i for me, he went to Singapore on Friday, came back on Saturday, i was jealous of course.. coz i wanted to go also... who knows... its Mtv Asia Awards week.. so i'm sure there would be artists flying in on friday.... who knows.. maybe 5566 *wishful thinking* anyways.. too bad.. couldnt go.... whats worse.... my dad came back home, gave me the cd and told me... that 5566 was doing a signing at hmv that night >< waaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~ i want i want......
+++++++++++++++++++++
Vcd's/ Cd's update:
1. TENSION - Planet Love (You should buy, i love the songs!! better than their previous albums)
2. 5566 - 2nd album ( err... i'm not sure what the album is called.. hehehe...)
3. The Nymph & The con artist (Korean tv series... i'm only on the 4th disc :)
4. My Mvp Valentine Part 1 (aaaaaaaargghh.. i wanna watch part 2 =/ i don't know where to find the vcd)
Wishlist:
1. The One(i'm not sure about this name) concert vcd featuring Fly To The Sky live in concert with another singer.
2. Kangta's album.
3. I want to meet Shuwei and aldo Renfu.
4. Westside Story vcd.
5. The cont. to Mvp Valentine.
6. 100% Senorita ( aaaaaaah.. saw the previews.. it LOOKS SOOO NICE)
