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Listening to: 5566 - boyfriend
MV of the day: Fly to The Sky - Guardian Angel
Mood: Alright... i guess
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Not posting lyrics today either, i still don't feel like it.

i had another boring day at home, with the same daily routine, wake up, make tea, do the washing, cook breakfast (for myself), wash the dishes, take a bath, then watch tv, then at about 10.30 go back down to the kitchen, check out the fridge for something to cook for lunchtime, cook rice, after lunchtime, wash the dishes again. *sigh* i can't stand it....

I finally finished watching MVP, and i thought Taizi was supposed to die in the story >< hmmff.... i was watching the 'Without Your Love' MV, in that MV, Tai zi sacrificed his life to save Xiao xi. That was the whole point of me buying the vcd! A tragic ending yet romantic, just imagine a guy that is willing to give up his life just to save the life of the girl that he loves.... *swoon* That would've been a GREAT yet SAD ending for the MVP story, but oh well, *sniff*sniff* Taizi didn't die in the story, he just became a successful person in life. The ending for Taizi was kind of abrupt. Left hanging around...... any chance of MVP Valentine II? hehehe ....with the sad ending of Taizi sacrificing his life for love??? *see's Taizi's fans growl at her*, O O guess not...

I'm having Korean song's addiction at the moment, falling more in love with Wheesung's voice. I can't wait till i get my hands on his albums. We need BIGGER CD stores here in Brunei, something like HMV *sniff*sniff* i want HMV.... anyone out there can open a branch in Brunei?? *begs* please..... I mean this is serious, The 5566's 2nd album has been out for quite sometime now.... maybe more than 3 weeks? am i right?... and still it hasn't arrive here yet, same goes for Energy's Energy4ever album. Or an even better example, Fly to the Sky's 3rd Album - Sea of Love, like hello??? it's been out like a long time ago.... and i don't even see any signs of it ever coming to Brunei. So sad!I so wish i can work at that AV part time, then i can help inform them what cd's to order. I don't get how their shipment takes SOOOOOOOO long to arrive, (i'm not exaggerating) i mean who are their suppliers, and where from? Can't they order direct from Yesasia, if they did for sure the cd's can come within 1 week of the release date in Taiwan. *sigh* That's all i have to say about that.

What else have i got to say? i can't think of anything right now. Oh.... i missed Shuwei on Entertainment news yesterday, then i even missed the repeats today, *cries* Shuwei was wearing a blue suit, pretending to be the host(Mally told me about it, thanx mally for the pics). Just now on E-news@Asia, Toro was there =) they were talking about Snow Angel's OST. He still looks ever soo Kawaaiiii with his new look, i still liked the Toro with the spikey head better. :) as i've said in the previous post, it's all about the hair. =p hehehe.

I'm so happy TVBS and TVB8 has been playing Energy's MV lately. i watched Energy's - Missing You MV twice, then several times of the Ying Zai Fei MV. The Ying Zai Fei MV aired on TVBS was the complete one, with the scene's from Silverhawk while the one on TVB8 is shorter and only feature's them. The Missing You MV, what can i say.... hmm i don't really like it, the colours looks very umm gloomy, yeah i know to suit the song, but still.... most of the time in that MV i can hardly see Energy's faces... particularly Shuwei's, most of the upclose views was mainly Ady's, not that i mind, i mean... how about Shuwei's face also... he is also SHUAI mah.. =P hehe i just felt that that MV the quality of the video wasn't very sharp & clear.... or maybe it's just me... oh well....

And... that concludes my post for today,
Sweet dreams everyone,
May you all find the one that you love.
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Listening to : Energy - Ying Zai Fei.
Recommended song for today: Wheesung - Ahwn De Na yo.
Mood: Quite good.
MV of the day: Fly to the Sky - Condition of My Heart.
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ello~ *waves*
i'm not posting song lyrics today, i don't feel like it. hehe... its more like lazy than not feeling like it... *^^*

Yes, you were right colly, i was bored till i just posted up my profile. LOL, i was really out of ideas, i don't know what else to post. Basically yesterday was a non-productive day of staying at home and be a couch potato besides doing the housework that is. I mean seriously, posting about me doing the housework? err.... i think people will fall asleep reading. hahahaha...

So far the M.O.E people haven't called me up, so i'm assuming that i didn't get the scholarship, that sux but oh well... it's not like i can do anything about it. So i have to look ahead and move on. =)

Hmm... i haven't developed the pics from the beach party yet. I kept on forgeting about it. Come to think of it, i was suppose to send it to the shop yesterday when i was shopping. i finally got the complete MVP Valentine set *^^* i'm so happy.... and my wallet is $59 less...... *sniff*sniff* now i got two copies of episode 1-10. =p I'm halfway towards the end watching MVP, i'm on episode 18. i watched 5 episodes this morning.... :P would've continued watching, but then i had some house chores to do. Tai zi why are you so SWEET in that story.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh.... i swear if Tony still has Tai Zi's hair i would sure fall for him... hahaha... it's all about the hair ^^ hekekeke....

Note to Colly: when you coming to my house, help me translate the story? hehehehehe

Note to Mally: You're coming either this week or next right? bebayalerr sama cowwwy ;) n txt me awal... need to rush n clean my room first hahaha

Hmm... What else to blog? Right, i'm addicted to Ice Cream these past few days. SO BAD!! i rarely eat ice cream, but then i think it was out of boredom that i raid my fridge for the ice cream and ate it.

ehem ehem *clears throat*
LISTEN TO WHEESUNG's SONG'S, HE HAS AN AWESOME VOICE!!!!! dlwd the recommended song above. i knew about him once when he performed at the M-net vid music awards, korea. He sang live and woaah... his voice...... *faints* you just have to listen!!

.... and that conclude's my blog for today....
_____________mwahhhz_______________

I wish i was the only one,
to lay in your arms at night,
You can't blame a guy for trying,
now what else can i do?

Short one taken from: 5566 Boyfriend

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About me:

Name: Nisa Johan
Age: 18
Sex: Female (duh!)
D.O.B: 12Th March
Location: Brunei
Tel no.: ah.. no need to state here :P

Loves(1): Shuwei, my friends & my family, Music, cd's, vcd's, dvd's, mobilephone, pc,
Loves(2): Shopping, The beach, Swimming,
Loves(3): Talking to people & making people happy.

Hates: Being bored!!

Dislikes(1): Being stuck at home too long.
Dislikes(2): Washing the dishes >< (if i have my own house i'll get a dishwashing machine!!! i will!!)
Dislikes(3): Not living up to peoples expectation.(this is bad, i know... i'm trying to change)

Fav. Movie: Dante's peak, Evolution.
(current) Fav. Tv series: hmmm.... Mvp Valentine, it should be a favourite right? considering i dun understand a single thing they are saying(coz no subtitle) but i still want to watch the story up till the end!

Fav. Korean: Fly To The Sky, WheeSung, 1TYM

Fav. Mandarin, band: Energy, Tension, 5566(finally it made it to my fav. list, i was impressed with the 2nd album), K one (the songs quite nice), Mayday, F4, Cosmo's.

Fav. Mandarin, Singer: Wilber Panweibo(2nd album rocks!!), Jay Chou, David Tao, JJ Lin Junjie.

Fav. English: Blue, Westlife, A1, 5ive, Stacie Orrico, Linkin Park, Our lady peace, DryCell, The Ataris, Simple Plan, Britney, Sum41, Bowling For Soup, The Calling, 3 doors down, Justin Guarini, Kelly Clarkson, Blink182.

Fav. Japanese: Nagase Tomoya(Sakuraba Yuuichiro)-member of TOKIO, NEWS, Arashi.

Fav. Malaysian/Singaporean(not sure): Misha Omar, Ning Baizura, KRU, Urban Exhchange, X-factor(the old one).

Fav. book: John Grisham, Robin Cook.
Currently reading: GUO SHENG - Tears of The Moon.

Statement about me:

Sometimes i act like a spoiled Brat, i hate to be kept waiting, If i don't get what i want i'll sulk, if i go out shopping and didn't manage to buy a single thing, i'll get angry Its like i have to buy something just to make myself happy, even if there was absolutely nothing that i wanna buy, i have to force myself to buy something, if not well.. i'll get angry, moody you know the drill. Lets see, what else, oh... i like to be first in everything and i mean everything not just studies hahaha! <-- this is very very BAD!! if i don't, well i'll get upset and moody la la la la... i'm exposing my bad side to the world aren't i? well... i don't want to hide it.. :P

My good side? hmm.... i don't know what's good about me, my friends would know =)

I've got nothing else to post... sorry for wasting your time.... oh just one statement, I WANT MVP VALENTINE THE CONTINUATION, i've only watched till episod 10 >< it costs $59.90 but it aint got subtitle, i've got the money but no one can bring me to that shop AARgghhHH *pulls hair*

mwaahzz.. love you guys xxx

Why then do you see all the negative things in me?
All I ever do is try to be all that I can be,
Girl you know you're hurting me,
All the pain u give to me,
As I lay at night I'm imagining things how they used to be
Girl you know you're hurting me
What am I to do with a broken heart?

Taken from: Selwyn - Negative things.
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One seeks happiness, someone to love, and something to live for. Why is it that their existence only lays in a non-existent world of dreams? Is there something out there waiting for me? Looking for me? Probably not, who am I? A nobody, a little black dot tainting the pure white cloth of the world. One feels themselves as something insignificant, who deemed themselves not good enough, not important enough and not strong enough to live in this world. Dear little one, be brave, a whisper is heard. How to be brave? The little one asked. Just look forward to the future and don't look back, even if sometimes you feel like you want to let go, remember there will always be sunshine right after the rain.

When I cry,
The night that you said goodbye
You expected me to die
But I made a brand new start
And go on with my life
I did what I had to do
To get myself over you
I'm not falling apart
You underestimate the condition of my heart

Taken from: Condition of My Heart-Justin Guarini (English version of Fly To The Sky's)

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i just had to post that up... =)

Actually, I've got no mood to blog, but I guess I have too, coz my bloggy is complaining that it is lonely. So here I am, ready to post another round of useless crap. Hmm... what can I say... the past few days had been boring! I hate staying at home, part of me can't wait till Uni start but another part of me is not ready for it yet.

On Tuesday:
Hmm… had last minute outing, went out with Dee, we had a manicure and pedicure at Nail Studio (the one infront of HuaHo Delima) It was fun and relaxing. The manicurist asks us if it was our first time, we said yeah. Then she asks if we wanted nail polish or buffing. Dee took the nail polish. I just wanted the buffing. Apparently nail buffing has a separate price >< I didn't know that!! Obviously I'm a newbie... aaaaaaaah... now I am experienced... won't fall for that anymore... she makes it seem as if the buffing is a package deal, I guess silly me for not asking... *^^* After that, we went to The Mall, to check out the place and the Cineplex, we met Azimas, she was working at the ticket counter of the Cineplex, we chatted for a while before heading towards Pizza hut for the $5 set value meal.. Yummy.. I had the lasagne set while dee ordered the spaghetti one.. we chatted around for almost 1hr + then headed to Jaya. Basically we just went round n round looking at stuff. You can say we haven't got an aim, we just wanted to get out of the house, coz we were BORED. Wanted to catch a movie at the Cineplex, but just the 2 of us? Not fun laa... we asked amalia to come, but she couldn't make it... I guess have to postpone it to further notice.. hehehe

Thursday:
Yup, Thursday, got nothing to say about Wednesday... except got a call by UBD about the Biomed enterance interview, dee, amalia and mai got called earlier on Tuesday (while we were at pizza hut lol) The interview went ok, heh... the person kept on asking what if you don't get any of the offers? What is your back up plan? I was like... errr... I dun have a back up plan (I didn't say this tho..) I mean seriously…. My plan A was to get the Nz scholarship, plan B was to go do pre-med/biomed at UBD, I never thought of a plan C so I told them teaching... haha the guy got shocked... lolz... they were asking why I chose Nz, why I chose Canada? La la la I told them I have relatives there… they laughed and asked where in the world don’t you have relatives at, we'll send you there.. lol.. it was a very relaxing interview.. :=) glad it was alright...

Today, Friday:
NOTHING!!!! So bored all morning stayed at home... started to clean my room at about 11am, up till now... Still not done yet... I don't know how to arrange my cd's vcd's and clothes >< too many... lying around... chatted wif Mally in the afternoon. Maaaallllllyyy~~~ thanx for the song... Now I want Renfu's song *grins* hehehe….. Watched Holland V at 7, it ended at 8pm, was about to leave the room to go into my bedroom, then my finger was itchy to switch the channel to see whether ch19 its not like the normal AZIO ent now... its more like news style... I prefer the old one.. but somehow something told me to check the channel... and YEAH my intuition was RIGHT.. SHUWEI & KUNDA were the hosts for the E-news & asia... aaaaaaaah Shuwwwweeeiiii sooooo0o0o0o0 SHUAI...can melt me for 1 whole hour just staring at his face... *swoo0n*


---- yaaaayyyy... I managed to post something... claps claps... :P
---- check out my Renfu fic if you haven't... just click on the link at the side... =)

Mwaahzzzzzzz... You underestimate the condition of my heart... xxx

You are not alone,
I am here with you,
Though we're far apart,
You're always be in my heart,
Never say goodbye,
someone tells me why,
First i need your hand,
Then forever can be then....

Taken from: M.Jackson- You are not alone.

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Heya bloggy, i missed you :) i've been so busy lately and ended up negelecting you, forgive me please?

*bloggy nods*
Yaaay *smiles*

Hi everyone, sorry for not updating my blog and also my fanfics, its been umm more than a week. really really sorry. I was caught up with a lot of things in life. i finally had my scholarship interview, it went alright, i don't know when the oral test is though and the results of the scholarship are suppose to be out this week. *hopes, i get the scholarship*

I went to BSP's schlrshp briefing to do mostly engineering courses, at some parts of the briefing almost fell asleep, coz i wasn't interested in engineering and they asked us to come. Some parts were kinda funny coz the guy talking was making loadsa jokes.

On Saturday:
I went on an outing with my friends, had lunch at mini q YUMMY!!! bbq'ed chicken, it was very nice, and also the japanese pizza, the name was too long, so i didn't memorize it, but mizzy knows :P she introduced it to me. By the end we finish eating at Mini q, we all smelt like bbq'ed food... hahaha.. it was fun coz we get to cook the chicken pieces ourselves. there's like a bbq pan on the table.. (i think its called a bbq pan... hahaha i really don't know) Ahmad came along on the outing, coz during the BSP briefing, he was telling me and dee that he was really-really bored at home, we both knew how he felt, staying at home IS boring, talk about watching the same thing on tv.. bleh.. yucks. So we brought him along, it was fun. After eating, we went to play pool, as usual i'm not so good... hahaha... Amalia retained her skills, makin pandai eh ia main....

After around almost 4-5pm, Rabiatul, Mai, Ruza and miz, had to go home, left with me, dee, amalia and ahmad. Dee & Amalia wanted to look for clothes + accessories for the beach bbq party tomorrow. So i went along with them, we left Ahmad at Huaho his parents picked him up around 5.30pm. While the 3 of us, dee drove us to Yayasan, Amalia bought her 3/4 pants and t-shirt there, while dee, still hasn't bought anything. We then went to Jaya next, there were lots of clothes, Dee finally bought her t-shirt there, Amalia got herself a new cap & sunglasses, me, well... i saw a t-shirt that i like, it fits me and would match my pink flip flops & bag but then it was tight fitting... i dun think it would be comfortable to go to the beach like that. I finally got home by like umm... 9pm..... 1 hr to go b4 watching Mtv Asia awards..

RENFU SOOOOOOOO KAAAAAAWWWWAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIII....
how come he seems to get even cuter everytime i see him on tv??? can someone tell me??


Kawaaiiii.....


kawaaaiii-er...

While watching tv had to prepare food for the bbq, sausages and crab sticks.. wo0o0..... had fun. i went to bed finally at around 3am. Coz i was busy doing my hair in tiny little braids, Alicia keys style... :P... my fingers all tired... and so are my legs....(tired from shopping around that is)

Sunday: Beach BBQ.

Amalia was there first, she was like there at 7.30am, and it was still raining at Muara Beach, Dee came next, followed by me 3rd, we're like where's Yadi?? He's suppose to be there first.. like he's one of the organizers.. hmmf.... but anyways, he did come, if he didnt for sure i'll kill him, somehow... :P The weather was not really sunny, it was rainy at first till about 9.30am when the rain stops, The whole day the weather was cloudy at the beach. It was nice, didn't have to worry too much about wearing sunblock. It was o0o0 WINDY!! Very nice... but the waves/currents were strong, didn't go swimming, coz i wasn't allowed. We had nice food, chicken wings, sausages, sandwiches, etc etc etc...

All in all the beach bbq was FUN!! except we didn't play football this time =/ the guys didnt bring the ball. We took pictures there.... havent develop it yet.. =/

Anyways, that's about all i want to blog, i tried to simplify it as much as possible coz if i had to go into detail, you all will prolly doze off... hehehe.. Mwaaaahzz.. thanx for reading.... ^^


o0o0h.. i forgot to mention.. I FINALLY got TENSION's- Planet Love and 5566's 2nd album, the original one.... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah *screams* i'm not sure which edition it is... but it has a free poster and calender....
My dad bought i for me, he went to Singapore on Friday, came back on Saturday, i was jealous of course.. coz i wanted to go also... who knows... its Mtv Asia Awards week.. so i'm sure there would be artists flying in on friday.... who knows.. maybe 5566 *wishful thinking* anyways.. too bad.. couldnt go.... whats worse.... my dad came back home, gave me the cd and told me... that 5566 was doing a signing at hmv that night >< waaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~ i want i want......

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Vcd's/ Cd's update:

1. TENSION - Planet Love (You should buy, i love the songs!! better than their previous albums)
2. 5566 - 2nd album ( err... i'm not sure what the album is called.. hehehe...)
3. The Nymph & The con artist (Korean tv series... i'm only on the 4th disc :)
4. My Mvp Valentine Part 1 (aaaaaaaargghh.. i wanna watch part 2 =/ i don't know where to find the vcd)

Wishlist:

1. The One(i'm not sure about this name) concert vcd featuring Fly To The Sky live in concert with another singer.
2. Kangta's album.
3. I want to meet Shuwei and aldo Renfu.
4. Westside Story vcd.
5. The cont. to Mvp Valentine.
6. 100% Senorita ( aaaaaaah.. saw the previews.. it LOOKS SOOO NICE)

I'm here without you baby,
But you're on my lonely mind,
I think about you baby,
And i dream about you all the time,
here without you baby,
And you're with me in my dreams,
Tonight girl, there's only you and me...

Taken from: 3 doors down - Here without you.

(((((((((((((((((((((((8668)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Its about 12.37am now. I've just finished arranging my certificates and completing the application form. I'm now happy with myself =) Yay... now, no more forms to fill in. So sleepy already actually, but then i don't want to go to sleep yet. I've to wake up early tomorrow, have to cook lunch for my siblings n my cuz, before i go to school. *^^*

I am so exhausted, all the energy in me has been completely drained out. Busy morning, cooking and cleaning the kitchen. >< I HATE WASHING THE DISHES!!!! I don't mind doing any other cleaning, whatever it is don't make me do the dishes. i don't know why i hate it so much, i just do. grrr..

Had a nice breakfast this morning, Mally came bought Waffles for me, and kolo mee for cowwwy... Thanx Mal, say thank you to your dad for me. :) Basically had a HUGE hahaha.. ( i may have exaggerated that) breakfast, i cooked fried rice, then ate the waffles with honey and butter *dro0ls* my mouth watering already... Mally was there in the kitchen with me, entertaining me with songs and klips from her laptop. The one with BOBOY in it WAS dAmN FUNNY!!!! LOL can't stop laughing. Then Cowwy came, her kolo mee was already dried, bottom layer black top layer of the noodles yellow? hehehe.... but she said its nice...

Mally, you LOVE Jeremy don't you LOL, Fany must be jealous when you were wo0ing my CAT Jeremy :P hekekeke... you even wore especially nice pink clothes today just for him.. awwww... she succeeded in getting attention from Jeremy.. hahaha. she so happy.. now Jeremy is not really scared of her anymore. I'm not sure about cowwy... COwwwwwy Jeremy still scared of you?? :P

hahahha.. Mally got electrocuted/whipped by Cowwy with a HANGER LOL.. hahahahahahahaha.... cowwy must be in a kinky mood... or maybe got the kinky syndrome from mally... LOL

To Colly & Mally- Sorry me inda berapa telayan this morning, had so many things to do today. Thanx for helping out with some of the cleaning and tidying :) jangan jara2 datang lagi.... =P

aaah... it's almost 1 am, i am so going to be sleepy tomorrow. I've to get 9 papers chopped and signed by the asst. principal, then OFf to UBD to hand in the forms. Then can ReLax wo0o0o0...

So guys, when's the outing? Me mau MIni-Q, go BBQ... suruh si Dee belanja.. :P hehehe.... *evils*

*Nizzy gives everyone a sleepy smile*
mwaaaahzz..
xxx

i love you
You love me,
we're one big happy family,
with a great big hug,
and a kiss from me to you,
won't you say you love me to..

Taken from: Barney

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Actually i don't know what i want to post. All i know now is my head hurts. Biological sciences are so confusing, there are so many majors under that faculty, which one is it? which one is the pre-medical course. i don't want to learn any plant biology >< *sigh*

*feel sick, feel like throwing up now*

Tomorrow, have to go to school again. i don't want to, but i have to. Sometimes i just want to go crawl into a small shell and hide from the world outside. Life is Hard. ABB is NOT good enough....... nothing ever is.... no matter how hard i try....

I guess you can notice, my mood is well..... not very good.... i wanted to go AV yesterday, but didn't then i said i wanted to go AV today.. but then dad said just go tomorrow, when my lil sis has tuition. *sigh* why not today? i want to go today not any other day...

My room is back messy again, and i've just cleaned it up 2 days ago. i'm so useless. i don't see the point in cleaning up my room as it tends to get messy again.... its tiring.... and whats the point.. i don't wanna do anything anymore..... i just wanna sit back and relax and enjoy myself.... i don't wanna worry about my future yet.... i don't want any pressure right now... i don't want to think about anything..... i just wanna have peace, love and serenity.

Sometimes, it seems like my life resembles like a robot. Do the same thing each day, like being programmed to do exactly what on each day. i've no life. i dislike staying at home, coz i'm always alone... yeah my lil sis n lil bro are around... but i can't talk to them about things.... i wish i had an older sister.. then i wouldnt be alone......

Do i have to tell you to show that i care? Do i have to tell you to show you how i feel?

Hidden deep inside,
a feeling i can't describe,
clouded by the grey clouds,
guarded by the fear from the heart.

xxx

What would it be like to live a day in your life?
I want to know
Living for Nothing
I cannot deal with the way that i feel inside
I've got to know
Living for Nothing

Dry Cell - Grape Jelly ^^ love this song.

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Actually i've got a post written yesterday, but didnt manage to post it and i kinda umm.. forgot to save it, so i have to post watever is left in my mind that i still want to post. Err.. that was confusing? haha.. sowwy... i'm a bit BlUR bLur this past few days.

Yesterday i went to school, Hasrul said Azlan forgot to bring the Vcd's in his car. So that means i have to wait till i get my hands on the Energy power concert (in M'sia) videotape and also My MVP Valentine that he is selling to me for $20 w0oo0o0.. its cheap.. but it don't have any subtitles... but i don't care... i still wanna watch.... <--- crazy right?

It was students HUNT TeAcher's 'Day'... hahaha.. most of the students are hunting the teachers down for the component result of the exam. hahaha.. It was a very busy day especially for the teachers in the admin.

Things that i want to buy:

1. Westside story
2. The rose
3. Arashi's cd - how's it going?
4. 5566's 2nd album
5. hmm i forgot. but i remembered that i wanted to buy a lot of things..

anyway gotta sign off...
laters..
xxx